Learning From Our Mistakes

So there's so many things I want to talk about today, because it's been a while since I've posted, and may things have happened.  But I am going to try and keep this short and just add the rest another day.

Two days ago, a co-worker gave me a great idea for me to move up in my job and career and help out another co-worker at the same time.  The problem with it was if I did it wrong or said it wrong it may come across as me wanting to take advantage of that co-workers situation, and use her misfortune to benefit myself.  Which of course, was not the situation at all, I wanted to help her and I guess in turn sort of help myself.  So I ask around, sent a few trustworthy co-workers an e-mail asking how they thought I should go about it.  And then I went outside to give my husband a call to ask him what he thought.  And just before calling him, a delivery truck/van drove by and on the side it said "Jesus Delivers".  And normally I would sit on the picnic table outside, where you can't really see the road, but this time; for some reason; I decided I would sit on the ledge of the docking bay, facing the highway.  It was as if God placed me there so I would see the truck.

Fast forward to that night, I still hadn't really gotten any advice that I thought was good enough to come across to the boss as I wanted it to.  And then it kind of clicked, I knew how to bring it up to him.  So yesterday; (Thursday) I had every intention of talking to my boss about it that morning, but my nerves got the best of me, and ended up putting it off, at least until that afternoon. 

So shortly after a meeting got done that afternoon (I had typed up exactly what I wanted to say earlier) and I was reading through it again, try to work up the nerve to talk to him and over walks my boss.  "Hey, you got a little time, I need to talk to you about something."  "Yeap no problem" I say, and we head into a conference room.  He proceeds to talk to me about two different options I had to move up in my job here.  One being a new program, they needed people to learn it and then teach it to others, and be an administrator for it.  (I'd done this kind of thing before here with a different program, and I was a logical choice for this.)  And the second one being the same thing I was going to go to him about!  We both had the same idea!  Of course I jumped on the second choice.  And the truck from the day before suddenly made so much sense!

God has plans for all of us, and usually if we are watching he'll show us how to get from point "A" to "B".  Sometimes we'll hear and see the hints and signs he gives us.  But I don't know if we really listen to them.  If; after seeing the truck; I would have just stopped and said, okay, obviously God has a plan for this, leave it up to him and he'll show me the way."  I would have saved myself all that stress and my cuticles from the pain my obsessive nail biting has caused.  I knew the moment I saw that truck it was a sign, and I admit I felt relieved.  But I continued to do it my own way, and I didn't let God into my life and give myself fully to him, trusting in him that he will give me the things I need.  I didn't listen to him.  Just like a child when a parent says, "Don't touch the stove, it's hot you'll burn yourself." Or "Don't do that you are going to hurt yourself."  And then moments later the child is heard crying in pain running to the parent.  It's not that the child didn't trust them, or believe them, it was that they were curious, and just needed proof they could do it.  But alas, we learn from doing and we learn from our mistakes.  God gives us the gifts we need to do what he has set out for us, and many times expects us to fail or not do it completely right.  But He is right there for us when we can't do it ourselves, and helps us finish what we started. And  just as the parent is there for the child (hopefully in most cases) and say that its okay, and they'll be fine, he's there to comfort us.  So my eyes and ears are open God, show me the way, what's next?

Oh and by the way; I did figure out what exactly the truck was from, you can see the picture of one of the trucks above - the one I saw looked a little different.  It is a food ministry delivering food for the homeless and everyone struggling in the St. Paul, MN area.  Here is their website; http://www.jesusdelivers.info/  I'll definitely be donating to them; maybe you will too.